Friday, June 22, 2012

A Little Bit of Everything

 So I have become a failure at blogging. It is becoming harder to just take a minute to sit down and write something. I've tried a few times, but then I feel overwhelmed. Since it has been so long since I last posted, I feel like I have to share everything. But I can't. So here's a list to update you:
  • We've gone to the beach. Twice. Bug loved the waves, so much so that when we've gone to the pool, she doesn't like it. She much prefers the ocean. Sweets and Bumpkin love both the ocean and the food. Sand, sun, and beach toys. Sweets is fearless. She always wants her dad to take her "swimming" in the waves.
  • Hubby and I have started a weight loss journey. I've debated coming out with this, but I'm quite proud of myself. As of this morning, I've lost 14 pounds. My clothes are starting to get looser and I feel great. I have about 30 more pounds to lose. I'm determined to make it happen. 
  • We discovered a local park that has free concerts 3 times a week. It has been fun to go and introduce the girls to a wide range of different music. And it's great to spend time as a family. Hubby has been really busy lately so any time we get together feels extra nice.
  • We finally splurged and bought frames for Hubby's various degrees and bar certificates. He finally is able to show off all his achievements.
So I've been struggling a little lately. I read friends' blogs and their Facebook posts and their lives look so much better than mine. Even when they say something is wrong, they seem to deal with it so much better. This world of the Internet and social networking is hard to deal with sometimes. You can put your best face forward and not have to show the nitty gritty everyday. But all I experience is the nitty gritty. Despite some of the joys that I see in my everyday, I find myself constantly comparing those to others and somehow finding myself lacking. This pairs with the fact that I feel very alone. No family is close. My really close friends live kinda far. I'm struggling finding new friends in Annandale. I guess I want to ask all of you: How do you not compare your worst to others' best? How do you remind yourself that your day-to-day is different from others and that is okay?

Being poor sucks. I just keep reminding myself that there are others that are poorer and I can stay home with my kids.

Why does all my family have to live in Utah? I would love to live closer to them. But I hate Utah. And I love Virginia. I just have to get them to move here. Probably not going to happen.

I have found a new hobby in sewing. I'm still really beginner (so don't ask me to do anything for you) but I've really enjoyed creating new things. I made these pillowcase dresses for my girls and they love them. I also made skirts for them for Easter without a pattern. I was pretty proud of those.

Pinterest is one of the best things ever. Talk about awesome ideas and so many good recipes.

2 comments:

Christine said...

I love your honesty. I stink at not comparing myself to others... I do it all the time- and it NEVER works in my favor. But then Robs started comparing herself- and it drove me crazy... which sent me on a mission to stop. I still do it- but I found if I don't read as many blogs- it's not nearly as tempting to compare. Ignorance is bliss. :)

We are SOOOO EXCITED for you and the girlies to come out this summer!

Jolena said...

I just got around to reading this post for much the same reason Christine was mentioning. I have found the less time I spend online, the happier I am with my life. It seems like online time almost engenders comparisons. I like keeping up with my friends, but when it fits into my time as opposed to having it take over my world and trying to fit everything else in around it. I have gone back and forth between following lots of blogs and trimming them down. The biggest thing that has helped me lately is the program I use to read blogs. It's called Mixtab and it's an app for Apple computers only that puts your blogs right on your computer. So I know they're there and I can go look at them when I choose, but I don't feel an impeding need to whenever I get on google reader and see how many new posts are there that I haven't read. Know what I mean on that? You just have to read them right, just to get those parentheses to go away. :)

I'm totally with you on the fact that being poor sucks. I so wish we were past the point of student loans and limited options due to a severe lack of money. I've found that living in the present as much as possible is the best thing for me in that respect. Live what's happening now, have some dreams for the future, but don't live in them. It's taken a long time for me to get to this point. We have a lot of uncertain things coming up very soon, but I really try to enjoy today, this summer, this period rather then thinking too much about some of the future things I can't do much about yet. We do all the preparation we can, but then let the future be.

And hobbies are a must! I have found that I have a need to create as well. It's frustrating sometimes because creating involves purchasing supplies and I can't always do that, but I have an ongoing list of sewing, building, and other such projects that I try to whittle away at and it really gives me a lot of pleasure every time I finish something. I switch between that and reading, but creating does seem to have more lasting positive impact for some reason.

Love you! I wish you liked Utah, because it would be nice if you were out here, but who knows, we may be heading much closer to your direction in not too many months, so maybe it's good you're not coming back here ever. :)